Tuesday 23 April 2013

Vivacious Trepidations

Ever experienced fear when the dream you have been dreaming of for years is about to be realized? You wish you could buy a Mercedes and then one day when you can you suddenly get scared of owning it. Or you dream of that coveted position in your organization and when you are about to be promoted you can goose bumps. Reality can be quite hard hitting at times especially when we have been waiting for it to happen. We are surprised not because it was unexpected but because we wanted it to happen and it did. Many times good things happen with us. But we utterly fail to accept them. We realize them happening somewhere deep inside us but we hesitate to accept them, both publicly and personally. We keep evading the issue. But life, as stubborn as it is, keeps showing us the mirror again and again till we accept that the charming image is infact ours. That the person sporting the magnetic grin is no one else but us. We are likened to an Onion. Peels after peels give us a personality. Problem is the inner most peel even amazes us at times. The marble wonder that we encounter after peeling takes us off guard.
Old and Haggard Past, often than not, overshadows our pliable present and tensile future. We keep fearing that the happenings of the past may boomerang at us again and this time with greater force. We develop trust issues. Trust, which is akin to an eraser, gets shorter with every breach. We fail to keep our faith in people that we meet.
Many times good things happen to us despite our strongest opposition. They happen without our even wanting them to happen. We fear this, fear that we will be happy. The very thought of being in state of happiness make us go nervous. We start doubting how we can be happy. We meet people accidently. Meet them without even the slightest inclination not knowing how gargantuan impact they will leave on us. With time we realize that no matter what happens they will always be around. Always be there to pester us with their chidings. This is faith in its highest form. The Faith of the unknown controlling us to remain in state of bliss. Some call them coincidences. If it is meant to be, it will be!
We forcibly revert to Decision making. We decide what will be done by us, who will share my life with me, my joys and my tears, my hopes and my fears, my doubts and my beliefs. This kind of decision making is not justified because so much is happening behind the scenes. We are not even fully aware of the script. All our life we keep collecting and hoarding. Things, relations, people, emotions…True happiness lies in giving it all. In sharing them and not stashing them. Love without possessing, feel without fearing, accept without guilt, laugh without inhibition and cry without holding it all back. The feeling of releasing it all to the Universe is simply splendid. The lesson is to never give up on things that make you smile and make the world smile with you. 

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